Still on some days I find it hard to believe you have gone and I can't stop the tears from filling my eyes. 

The other day when we went to a PT shop and the shop was playing music from your Era. Music that you enjoyed listening to. I had to hurry out the shop as I was worried people would look and wonder why I was crying. Then only a few days ago while I was on holiday in Egypt. I was speaking about you as it was your birthday and suddenly my eyes begin to fill with tears.

I told you i wasn't ready for you to leave me.... I don't think I ever would have been ready to be honest. I just miss you so much!!

I love you Nanny xxxxxxx